april showers bring may flowers.

so since i wrote last which was only a few weeks ago nothing really has happened. ive tried this new thing called "if your really not worth my time im going to delete you from my life." and it so far has worked. it stops me from making stupid mistake like drunk txting. which i'm known for. i went to the day to remember show and it was AMAZING! fuckin a i loved it. i would love to go down for their final show in florida. you never know i can do amazing things lol. theres a shit load of crap around the corn-nor like my birthday! which im trying to decide what to do for it. i have a few ideas. theres a lot of shows coming up this summer and i must say i really want to go to as many as i can i just need a legit concert buddy. a few weekends ago i went up into a city we dont ever party at and it was amazing..so much fuckin fun. blah. okay, im totally confused when it comes to all guys and i dont know what the hell i want anymore. i know i dont want to go thru anymore heart break. i dont want to deal with anymore disappointment which it seems like thats all that ever happens. dont tell someone they arnt your type then procde to try to contact them then you say fuck it and weeks later a random dude comes up to me asking they i stopped talkin to his friend. im sorry but i just dont understand. sometimes i wish i could just find someone who would make me happy and marry them and be done with it..