so here I am again, writing to a world of unknown people. today was weird. my fucking car has become unreliable which sucks cause my life revolves around it. hopefully ill get it fixed by friday. ive come to think my friends suck because without my car i'm pretty much left out of the week night festivities. And seeing that a friend of mine is in town you'd think i'd want to be around as much as possible, i do but no one can be as kind as i am and pick me up. i wish i didnt need friends because they all just fuck you over in the end anyway. i think i'm starting to miss someone who i hardly even know and even though hes like 1000 miles away he could be that one person to change things. I dont have much opinion on dating online people that you meet but you just never know who people are, good or bad, and they never really know you. honestly this kid could be in love with the person who he thinks i am and in reality im nervous that hes going to hate the person i am if he really got to know me. Maybe its the fact he's really from over seas and they have a complete different outlook on relationships or maybe he just wants his green card??...shit if he'd pay me id be down, haha jk jk. he only has a year visa and hes down in Florida till September. Knowing me i'd end up getting attached and hurting myself in the long run. i just dont know anymore. i feel like i want something or maybe its someone maybe i'm just a hopeless romantic that will forever suffer in this small ass town with these lame ass people who prove to me everytime that they are all the same. i'm really thinking about saving up just to get the fuck out of here and i always say things and never do them, this time i just might do this....well guess im off to find all the info for my passport.
xoxoxoxoxo.♥♥♥
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